Did you ever notice that
you either have no auditions, nil, zero, nada or suddenly out of nowhere, you
need to ask your agent to adjust audition times because your bookings are
conflicting with a multitude of auditions and callbacks (you should only dream of
this being your biggest problem). Why is it that
when it rains it pours? Who knows?
But I do know that the old adage,
work begets work,
is pretty accurate. So what does all
this mean? Well if the work is not coming to
you, go to the work. In other words if your phone isn't ringing, the energy around you screams: I am so desperate, I need to book, I am sick of waiting. But if you are in a play (pay or not),
shooting a short film (pay or not),
or even doing a staged reading of a film just
because you love the work,
the energy
around you then hollers:
I don't need
the work, I love what I do.
Now if you are one of these
naysayer types who is anti-energy-speak then let me put it to you in terms you
will definitely understand.
A person who
we will call Drew has a crush on you.
You go on a date just to be "open". The well is pretty dry and folks aren't lining
up to date you so you proclaim,
"Why not? It could be fun.." But,
open-schmopen, you inevitably hate
this person. In fact by the end of the
evening, you're ordering Drew
around. You bark,
"Get me this you sap. Tie my shoe! I'm
sore from walking three blocks to that stupid restaurant from which I will
probably get food poisoning."
Finally
you're at your door and Drew leans in for the kiss. You dodge and Drew says, "I think you're my soul-mate. The connection is undeniable!" You
think to yourself, "What? I
hate you, repulsed is really the
best way to describe it. Do you like pain and suffering,
you dweeb? Because, Drew-boohoo-we-are-soul-mates, I do not!"
But,
ah, clearly oh wise one,
you may not understand the rules of the game, the give and take of human nature. We want what we cannot have; we are obviously very wounded entities, clearly not as evolved as we claim. Never-the-less, it is what it is. Thus, the energy you gave out (there's that word again) was:
I don't need you, I am so about
everyone else, who cares. And,
there it is like a moth to a flame,
Drew can't resist!
Unfortunately, it is hard to be so laissez-faire about acting
jobs when we really do care and we really are desperate to book. The best way to combat the I-need- this-so-bad energy is to be so
booked with a million other projects that you don't really have the time to be
needy. Then watch them start calling
your agent like you were the hottest thing in town.
-- Heather Langone
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