In The Red

Shit. Shitters. My bank account is below zero again. Man, this month I keep getting over-drawn and I'm not spending but what I require. Bills sit unpaid and I have NO idea how I'm going to pay rent this month--or if I manage to pay rent will I lose my internet and electricity? Because I don't know how both will get paid. Sigh. I was sick nearly the first 2 whole weeks of October and it has cost me. I've missed a lot of work and I'm operating in a fear-zone. I also have a brief trip planned back home where I won't be making any dough.

What to do? Well, I picked up a shift on Halloween. However, that required me to go get a costume (more $) because we're required to dress the part or (strongly encouraged). So...hopefully I'll make enough to cover the cost of the costume. Sigh. Nutty month.

I'm also in a strange place emotionally. Had a treatment with my minister this morning because I just felt so underwhelmed and frustrated and hurting--really hurting. Recently I made the decision to only accept what is going to be good for me from here on out. So, taking some time off in order to remember who I am and what I want. Getting clear--realizing that it's okay to stand up for what you want and not accept anything less. And that's applicable to your romantic life, career, etc...

Weird things are in the air. Fires, for one. Usually means there's too much dry "stuff" and it's mother nature's way of burning off---purifying the earth. Or man's careless cigarette. However, either way, Mother Nature is still served. Fires are a way of jump-starting new growth, somewhat painful (extremely painful if your house happens to be in the path of Mother Nature). Metaphysical maelstrom is what is in the air! It's painful as hell, but it's time to move forward, not back. It's time to make choices and be wise.

--Evelyn White

Comments

[JimTodd]

Storms are good. They bring you to a better place. Sometimes we need a storm or two to force us into a direction.

As for the low funds? I'll bet 98% of actors can relate to that.

I've always found it's OKAY to step back from acting and regroup financially if you have to.

It's worth it for the peace of mind. Time flies, there's no problem in stepping back and taking a temp job to make the cash.

As I typed the word "back" above, my cell rang with another temp job offer. I'm staying with the current one to continue making good money.

I even told my agent that I will be taking a little break for a couple of months. I just want to sock the dough away and it's working nicely.

So do what you gotta do and good luck.