The spirit is willing (but the flesh is weak)...

I'm so glad that this week began with a holiday b/c I needed that extra day!  Y'all know I do production work sometimes, right?  Well, I don't know if I mentioned it or not, but, at times, I tend to bite off more than I can chew, and right now is one of those times.  I am working on a production called "An Evening of Stars: Tribute to Patti LaBelle", working with the NAACP Image Awards' submissions department, and had an audition for "Hannah Montana" this week.  I have also been plagued by some low-grade maladies that doctors haven't been able to get a handle on.  No, I'm not doing back-breaking work like chopping-rocks, and the work I do does contribute to my financial well-being, so I'm not complaining, but I do get tired a lot.  Like, really tired.  With all of the stimulus Los Angeles bombards us with on a daily basis, and the fact that I haven't had a real getaway in a while, I think it's just an accumulation of things.  More brain-tired than anything, I think.

This happens from time to time. My reason for the current situation is - I am trying to pay off all of my existing bills (with the exception of my HUGE student loan that I feel like I will be paying until I'm 90 years old). I need to pay off my car, my credit card, my time share, my mother, and the IRS (though definitely not in that order), and I want to do it within the next 6 months. So what do I do?  Do I just sit back & wait for residuals to roll in?  Noooo.  And with the dearth of auditions I'm having, I can't really trust in the industry to be able to sustain me in the short-term future, so I take as many friggin' jobs as I am offered. All at the same time. Yesterday when I left the production office after a busy (but not unbearably so) day, I felt like I was moving in slow motion.

I wish I could tie this blog post up with a nice pretty bow, smoothing the jagged edges, and make it all pretty, you know, thirty-minute sitcom style.  But I can't.  I'm just gonna push through day by day, get my bills paid, then make some decisions regarding my career as a job juggler.  This is no longer working.

--Nicole J. Butler

Comments

[Cole Matson]

I saw your Gain commercial! Approx. 8:15 p.m. EST, on the SciFi channel, during Star Trek: The Next Generation. (Yes, I'm a geek.) I love what's going on with your eyes. Good job!

[Nicole J. Butler]

Nothing wrong with being a geek. Geeks rule the world!!

I keep getting that comment about my eyes lately. How funny.

Thanks so much, Cole. ;o)