Out With The Old
Literally. I've been pretty good since I've returned from home - I hit the ground running with a thorough clean-up of my apartment. Granted, I have yet to hit the gym or the studio, but a long overdue purge has begun. And once my place is in a more maintainable condition, doing other things - like the gym and studio - will be easier (or so I am telling myself, but it feels right).
At a post-holiday party last night I weighed the pros and cons about going to an audition today with a friend. PROS: It's work on a SAG project (or so the listing said); CONS: The script sounded bad and the website seemed... it just didn't look up to par. I believe I am ready for the real work now, so why waste time with anything less? And yet... maybe I do still need to do the lesser work in order to get the real stuff???
I drove myself and my pal in mental circles as we sipped our champagne cocktails until I realized that if it takes this much effort to rally myself to go to an audition, then, hello, there is my answer. I know I am not an actor who shirks auditions - I actually LOVE auditioning and have had many experiences where I am so anxiously excited about a given audition that I feel I will die or pee my pants - so I don't have to feel like a "bad" actor for passing this one up. I do worry I might be missing a great "bridging" opportunity - a project where you make a friend who then leads to another project, etc... but whatever. I just did a show I was unsatisfied with and had to refuse another role (for that webisode project) because my gut instincts turned out to be well-founded.
So... onward. I'll focus on the stuff I know I want.
I should hit the gym and the studio today but I'm still bogged down with the nagging remnants of this illness I got on Christmas (perhaps I had 1 too many champagne cocktails last night) and still have a few drawers to empty out and floors to mop.
Here's to a clearer path - both in my career and in my apartment - in 2009.
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