Where Was I Again?

Almost a full two weeks off from my normal life actually got me sort of excited to get back into my normal life.  I, too, was even looking forward (am still) to commercial auditions re-starting.  At least it's something, right?  And I had that stage project I wanted to put up for myself, and two new monologues to learn and... I was excited... I was... ready... and energized... And...I'm fading already?

I haven't gotten any commercial audition calls yet - but that's ok, we've only just got back into normal work mode.  I decided to cut out all "crap projects" from my radar - no wasting time on them any more.  I can do the pro stuff so that's what I will focus on... but let's face it - I don't have an agent to send me out on the pro stuff.  So how do I get them, then?

And the personal project I wanted to do... well, my friend sort of bailed on me.  Which I'd actually expected, but it puts me back at square 1.  Which then makes me ask: do I keep trying or spend less money and try one of those "membership" showcase groups, instead?

Hello 2009 - where do I go from here? 

Tips, anyone?

The only thing I can see to certainly do is start back up with the agent/CD seminars.  Although, truth be told, they really broke my heart last time.  In fact, they broke my heart so much so that I can't even begin to register exactly how much.  I was praised so wonderfully... and yet it still got me nowhere.  Nada.  Zip.

So if I spend more money and do my best and get praised and still nothing happens... what's the point?

But really that is the only thing I can think of to do.  Is it silly?  Or do I just go for it.

Seriously... where Do I go from here?  I don't have an agent, or a project or anything or anyone calling me.  Am I delusional for staying in the business?

I want to keep trying, but I don't know what to try next.

--Susan Atwood

Comments

[Justine]

Yeah a new year is always exciting but also kind of daunting. I feel like I don't want to waste any of it, now that it's here. I'm going to a goals-planning workshop for actors this weekend. Hopefully that will help. I know what I want to do, but then when it comes time to get started, sometimes I need some help focusing.