Procrastination and Packing

Today's the day.  No, for real.  Today I start packing all of my things into boxes.  This is it.  No more excuses...not that I've been making excuses, really.  I've just not been ready to do the real packing.  I've been doing things in preparation for packing.  

Last night I had a big going away party at Art Bar and afterward a few people came over to my crappy, but cool brooklyn apartment to hang out.  One friend asked, "Wow...you're apartment is so put together....I thought your place would be in boxes...I thought you left soon...."

"I have been packing!!  It's just not packing you can see....really..."

"Okay, well where are the boxes?" 

"Um...well...I've been doing packing that's in preparation for the boxes...before I get the boxes..."

"Okay well then why is all your stuff on shelves and pictures hanging on the wall?"  

Why was everyone going on and on about me and packing up my apartment?  Moving things into Manhattan Mini Storage can be an emotional process, and I don't need anyone putting pressure on me, so I finally stopped the naggin with, "Listen here people!!  I only have one week left with those pictures on the wall!!!  Lay off!!!  This is a party...MY party!  Let's all just have fun and stop talking about packing!!.....In fact, If you think I should be packing up my apartment...then maybe this party should be over and you should all just leave!!!!  Just HAVE FUN and stop talking about packing or LEeeeeAVE!!!"

Maybe that was the wrong thing to say, because it wasn't long until everyone did leave and I was left alone in my now quiet, lonely, and very full, very unpacked apartment.  

I looked at a bulletin board above my desk in the lamp light.  It had a bunch of old cards and Playbills from shows I've seen in New York.  I perched on the chair in front of my desk and reached my hand up to take the bulletin board down from the wall, but then hesitated and just straightened The Apple Tree Playbill.  Then i opened one of the cards a bit.  It was one from a couple years ago from my big sis, It said,  "Saw a couple of these things from Target and thought of you.  I'm so proud of you!  Good luck with your big screen test at ABC this week!"  I closed the card and then got down from the chair.  It was late and I was tired...., so I thought to myself, "Eh.....I'll pack tommorrow...,First thing tomorrow morning..."  

Aahhhhh procrastination!  I can come up with all sorts of other things to do to keep me from starting on the one task I really, absolutely need to do.  This morning I needed to get coffee and chat with my coffee shop buddies for an hour before getting started on anything.  Then, I had to get in my exercise, so I went for a run.  Then, I had all kinds of Facebook messages that were awaiting a reply!!  I can't keep my Facebook friends waiting!   And now, there's a blog I have to write.  

So now, it's noon and I still haven't started.  But after this, I'm calling Manhattan Mini Storage and finding some boxes. I am getting started.  I swear, right now....I'm on it....Although, it's nearing lunch time and I'm a little hungry...!

Today's the day.  I start today.   I mean, really, I kinda have to. 

Okay, bye...for real...bye. I have to go procrastina-- er, I mean pack.

--  Emily Kinney  

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[Tom]

How was the party? Sorry I missed it...