Reality Tickles

So I am sitting in the dentist chair wondering why this dentist refuses to listen to me when I say I have severe reactions to epinephrine.  And then she gives me another shot and proceeds to ask me a very inane question. 

Well not only do I have my mouth pried open by her ginormous hand but the epinephrine has caused my heart to beat so fast and my body to overproduce adrenaline that now I can't speak even if I wanted to. 

I stare blankly at her as I tow the line between lucid reality and 'dang it -- that girl has just passed out!'

As I balance this little world between passing out in the dentist chair and the fifteenth episode of Will and Grace that they are making me watch, I reflect on leaving my acting manager.  It seems like actors are always making choices that could absolutely ruin whatever semblance of a career has been built or catapult them into super-stardom.  Let's face it there's not much of an in between except working constantly and I feel like at this point, that may as well be super stardom.

Although I just left my acting manager, I managed to attract the interest of this new acting manager who tells me right before the dentist appointment which I don't know will ruin my morning, that he wants to work with me. I have a moment of panic and then I tell him that I have to think about it followed by a moment of dread which is followed by lots of Novocaine.  Inevitably, this is followed by what if I made the wrong decision? What if he is good?  What if he signs only a select few? 

Then I have reality tickles--I call them that because I don't stay in reality long enough to call it a slap in the face or a kick in the pants--so I have tickles.  The tickles tell me, "No, your instinct is not into it.  Sure he has good clients but it's not right. Stop doubting." 

Then I instantly go back to my story--good or bad I am always in my story.

The thing is, actors at the top of their game really just don't appreciate how nice it is to have all their peeps navigating their career for them--provided they steer them to further success.  It 's nice to have a manager who says, "No no she can't do that project -it's not right."  Or, "Yes we realize that she will have to take a cut in salary but this is a great role, she wants it."  Or, "Don't do Leno.  You are a horrible interview.  You will embarrass yourself."

Still in my story...

Hey it's better than concentrating on the fact that the Novocaine has caused the  left side of my mouth to betray the right side and it hangs down to my knees.  Oh and every time I take a sip of soda, I drool it down the side of my mouth leaving a brown coke stain on my new shirt--right on my boob.

Story...yeah it's way better!

-- Heather Langone

Comments

[los angeles cosmetic dentist]

Funny! why does everytime people heard about "dentist chair" they feel afraid? and why also had a reaction about the epinephrine? you have a nice blog.

by: florence

[los angeles cosmetic dentist]

hi guys i am back i just want to say thank to your blog i knew what there reason i also experienced on my own,funny for me i am feel scared too.

florence